recurring theme

there's this thing that goes on in my head. i can't remember when it started; and i don't know how to explain it exactly. it applies to countless circumstances, and i've never attempted to tell anyone because it has no words.

have you ever noticed how it's really difficult to talk about something you don't have a word for?

but i'll try anyways. it is sort of just a concept that appears in my mind. and every time it appears, it causes me to wonder and furrow my eyebrows and worship God. immediately.

i feel stupid even now explaining it because i just can't.

it's an image of yuck vs. God. usually my yuck, but not always. sometimes it's just an unowned yuck. it's an image of absolute purity vs. impurity, i guess.

yeah, that explanation applies, but it's so much more than that. i just can't capture it in words. i drew a picture of it on my computer once. so i'll just post that.